11.9.10

Feeling a bit better today than I did yesterday.  This post is going to be a bit random and nonsensical.  It's insane around here today.  We are finally getting our wood burning stove put in today and there are strange men running in and out of my house at this very moment.  They're speaking rapidly in Spanish, and I am sitting at my kitchen table writing this and hoping they don't ask me any questions, because I know very little Spanish and even less about stove installation.  I am also freezing because the heat is off and the door is wide open as they run in and out and around the house.  I can't wait to build a giant roaring fire tonight while the rain falls outside.  It's going to be blissful.

We have tentatively decided to stay in this house much longer than we thought we would.  We are going to start finishing the basement this winter.  If that goes well we are going to remodel the kitchen.  If we are still standing after that renovation we are going to transform the two bedrooms and one bathroom on the main floor into one big master bedroom, bath, closet.  Big goals, big dreams, and we'll do most of the work ourselves which means it will be at least five years before we finish everything on the list.  And maybe after finishing the basement we'll throw our hands up in frustration and move out.  If we finish everything we will have nearly 2,000 sq. feet, two bedrooms, a laundry room/bathroom combo and great room in the basement, kitchen, dining room, living room, bedroom/bathroom/closet combo on the main floor, and one big family room on the third floor which can be used as a bedroom since it has a closet.  Whew.  Our lives turned upside down when Charlotte died.  Our five year house transformed into our - who knows how many years? - house, and all of our plans and ideas shifted dramatically.  We are trying to make the most of it, and adapt accordingly, but most days I want to tear my hair out.

Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope is having a Holiday Gift Exchange for babylost parents.  Please go here before the 22nd of this month and sign up.  The holidays are a difficult time of year, (I barely survived Halloween) and this is a great way to connect with other parents.

I'm going to steal an idea from Kristin over at Dear Stevie.  My "followers" (such a strange term) list has grown quite a bit lately, and I don't know who many of you are.  If you feel so inclined please leave a comment, share your blog, let me know who you are.  The readers of this blog help me get through the day.  Thanks for the love and support.         Pin It