Thank you for the support and comments on my last post. When I was pregnant with Charlotte I felt a bit frantic about the friendship with fellow mamas component. As in, I had none. Now I have more mama friends than I can count on my fingers and toes combined and I just love it. I think the support of women is vitally important for new mamas and as I make my way through this hazy postpartum time I am so grateful to have friends who check in via e-mail, friends whose comments here reassure and make me laugh, friends in the area who drop by, who bring food over, who offer advice and hugs and kindness, and friends who have also lost, who understand how overwhelming it is to have a baby in heaven and a baby in arms. Maybe it's the hormones, but I just love you all so much today.
In other news: the B man had a fabulous night last night! We only needed the magic gripe water once, he fed well and slept well. I took the advice of a nearby mama (as in two doors down) and when he woke up for his 6:45 am feed, I didn't get up. I ignored my book, my phone, the laptop, my slightly hungry tummy, and went back to sleep until 9:15. It was so wonderful to get that little bit extra sleep in. Usually I can't sleep past 7 am, but I moved Bennett from the co-sleeper into bed with me and we both slept like kittens. When I woke up to his face right next to mine, his hand on my cheek the words of my pediatrician came to mind: "He sleeps on his own surface, right? Um, yes, most of the time.
And then we tried the whole side lying nursing thing, but I think that project will have to wait for another time. Bennett and I need to do some YouTube studying before we attempt that one again.
After our wonderful sleep we were feeling good so I decided a trip to Target was in order. Our first trip out all by ourselves to a big, big store - eeek! I dressed him in a really cute outfit, even though it was too big,
Wait. Before we were off I decided to let him eat a bit. I knew it would be more of a snack than anything since it had only been an hour and a half since his last feed, but I wanted him in tip top shape for our big adventure. I was feeling so confident about my nursing skills I decided to nurse him really quick in the dining room with nary a burp cloth in sight. He nursed for a second, decided he really was too full to continue and unlatched himself. Well, goodness me, milk EVERYWHERE. It shot across the dining room - seriously didn't know I had this skill - drenched B's face, hit the wall, hit two of the dining room chairs. And I just stood there staring, amazed at the carnage, nothing at hand to stop it with. I eventually stopped marveling, grabbed a blanket, wiped his face, wiped the chairs and wall, and put myself back together.
The trip actual went really well. Bennett nestled down in the sling and was asleep within minutes. I was worried he would fuss, and for a moment I thought I was without pacifier, which left me feeling panicky and sweaty, but he only fussed when removed from the sling and we didn't need the pacifier, not even for one second.
I bought everything on my list and then wandered for a little while. It was nice to be out of the house, see other humans, walk around a bit. I am feeling really good physically right now. I imagine it's the blood builders, plus the iron, plus the placenta capsules I'm taking. My back is bothering me, but even with walking around and carrying Bennett today it's not hurting too bad.
The sling is wonderful. People come close and peer at Bennett, or smile and weave past to get a close look, but no one touches him. I was so worried about going out in public and having everyone place their hands on his sweet face, but it appears having him close to me keeps people at a respectable distance. I'm still a little nervous about the sling and my sling wearing skills, but it's much easier for me than hauling his car seat in and out of places. That thing is heavy! And with all of the news reports about babies falling and dying after being placed in the top portion of carts in their car seats I would rather avoid the car seat and store combo entirely.
I feel like Bennett and I conquered the world in one short morning. This newborn baby gig is tough, but I really, really, really love it. Pin It