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Tuesday, May 1, 2012
may
I was planning on writing about our day out yesterday, but when I woke up this morning the heaviness of May hit me like a freight train.
Stupid month with your flowers and showers and bursts of sun.
I'm not the only one who stares down May with loathing.
Way back two years ago there was a knot of us who came together to mourn our spring babies.
As time has passed the knot has grown, and I now know so many lost babies my heart is positively bursting with tiny hands and feet mothers and fathers the world over wish they could kiss.
Driving around town today tears welled as if on cue.
It's May, they said, time to cry, mourn, remember.
This is my season of grief.
And I want to take a moment to thank you for being here.
This place is my heart and soul; these thousands of words comprise my person.
Thank you for reading about my life, my Charlotte, my Bennett, my hopes, dreams, fears, and grief.
You are in my prayers.
And as the days lengthen, as anniversaries pass, I remember your babies, and think of them running through a field chasing butterflies with my Charlotte.
Sweet toddlers, loved babies, we miss you.
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I wrote a very similar post this afternoon. Remembering Charlotte with you - and all those other Spring babies....
I love you Angela. I was thinking the same thing. That I met so many of you in May, fresh with that stinging new grief. So many things have changed since then- and sadly, for me, some have not. :(
Even in your grief, you have found uplifting words for the rest of us. Remembering beautiful Charlotte and all the other babies too. Just tears and a broken heart, but your words were a salve.
Thinking of you so much right now. I can totally understand. May is when we found out my baby was going to die. For me, from now till his birthday in July are just sucky times. Thank you for always sharing and encouraging us. Continuing to remember & celebrate Charlotte with you. {{{hugs}}}
It's that time of year already. The heaviness settles in more than usual, the flashbacks, everything. Little did I know when I posted on the babycenter board for the first time that I would meet and become friends with such an amazing group of women and we would still be in each other's lives 2 years later.
Thinking of you a lot as Charlotte's birthday approaches.
May for you, August for me. Months all around the year, filled with birthdays of missing babies.
They are all loved.
They are all missed.
This month, I especially remember your Charlotte. Beautiful girl.
xo
We certainly do miss you sweet babies! I know Charlotte, Riley, Peyton, and Cameron play together often. I dream of the day when I can be there but with Logan here now I long to be on Earth for years to come. My how things change, yet grief still rears it's ugly head. If only we could watch videos of our loves playing in Heaven...wouldn't that be grand! You are in my prayers also Angela...always!
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