I feel like I need a bucket list for this year since next year I will be 30!
What did you want to accomplish before you were 30?
What I thought I wanted when I was 20 is so different from what I want now.
I don't even know if I can come up with anything I HAVE to do before I'm 30. I have a family, a healthy baby who is nearly a year now (!) and too many blessings to list them all.
And no I never got that graduate degree I talked about. And no we never moved to Europe. And no I'm not who I thought I would be. But I honestly think I might be someone better. And my first book - short as it is, it still counts - will be available soon and that's a dream I've carried around for so long I can't remember when I first imagined it being part of my life.
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I wrote that ^^ last night. Then I woke up this morning to the now familiar feeling of birthday sorrow. You know, the whole I'm a year older, Charlotte will never be a year older sadness. I have so much to be thankful for and all I can think about is what - and who - I'm missing.
My birthday is almost over, but I think I can turn it around. We had a nice dinner out and after J puts B to bed (I can hear him reading to him, it's the sweetest thing) we're going to watch a movie while I work on the cupcakes J made for me.
Life doesn't always take the shape we want, but we can - and should - still celebrate the small things.
And I can't forget that my 29th year brought me the brightest light with the best giggle I've ever heard.
Small things. Big blessings. So much can change in a year.
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7 comments:
HUGE blessings. He is so wonderful, Angela.
Wishing you a year full of love and comfort and happiness and giggles.
Gotta love naked babies playing outside!
Happy Birthday Angela!
My 30th was a big disappointing turkey, but I've enjoyed each birthday since - I'm 37 now. :) I also had an almost-1-yo on my 30th! That makes it hard to really celebrate in style, for both parents. My husband turned 40 when our youngest was 1 and it was also anticlimactic - but each once since has been better and better. And 30 is still so young! Don't rule out Europe yet, though personally I would take the PNW over Europe any day.
Can I just say, I would love to nibble on your little boy? He has the most delicious skin, and the sweetest little face. I love seeing his pictures!
(((hugs))) & Happy Birthday. I too understand that birthday sorrow. Maybe someday we won't feel it like we do now.
And I chuckled at the pics of B playing outside as lately that is how my litle O plays outside in the water as well. It's just easier! ;) He is adorable!
I wanted a baby before I turned 30. Hope arrived a month before I turned 29, and I was 30 weeks pregnant with Angus on my 30th. So by my 31st birthday, I finally had babe in arms. Such a good feeling, but I do remember the low feeling as well. The "ohmygodmybabywillneverhaveabirthday" feeling.
Happy birthday to you, your boy is just a delight.
xo
and what a HUGE, small blessing he is <3 Happy birthday!!
Late, but here. I hope your 29th wasn't too disappointing in the end.
I'll be 30 in a mere two months. I don't do bucket lists because I prefer to live on the edge with the fun things in life. I wanted to travel and be married and be a mom. I guess those have all been accomplished. Not quite how I expected... that's for sure. :/
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