I feel like I need a bucket list for this year since next year I will be 30!
What did you want to accomplish before you were 30?
What I thought I wanted when I was 20 is so different from what I want now.
I don't even know if I can come up with anything I HAVE to do before I'm 30. I have a family, a healthy baby who is nearly a year now (!) and too many blessings to list them all.
And no I never got that graduate degree I talked about. And no we never moved to Europe. And no I'm not who I thought I would be. But I honestly think I might be someone better. And my first book - short as it is, it still counts - will be available soon and that's a dream I've carried around for so long I can't remember when I first imagined it being part of my life.
I wrote that ^^ last night. Then I woke up this morning to the now familiar feeling of birthday sorrow. You know, the whole I'm a year older, Charlotte will never be a year older sadness. I have so much to be thankful for and all I can think about is what - and who - I'm missing.
My birthday is almost over, but I think I can turn it around. We had a nice dinner out and after J puts B to bed (I can hear him reading to him, it's the sweetest thing) we're going to watch a movie while I work on the cupcakes J made for me.
Life doesn't always take the shape we want, but we can - and should - still celebrate the small things.
And I can't forget that my 29th year brought me the brightest light with the best giggle I've ever heard.
Small things. Big blessings. So much can change in a year.