This pregnancy has been really rough. And I'm only 8 weeks in! Poor B has been running wild while I lay on the couch/bathroom floor/guest bed. My symptoms are worse than my two previous pregnancies and some days I can barely function. I've been sick since the beginning of February, though I didn't register positive on a test until the middle of the month.
B does not like having a sick mama. He cries and tries to climb in my lap when I get sick. The other day he got so upset he ran in the bathroom and dropped the toilet seat on my head while I was vomiting. Sweet boy thought it would make mama stop, but it just made the situation worse (talk about adding insult to injury).
I'm up in the air regarding a care provider for this pregnancy. The people I had in place last time are not available to me so I am trying to figure out who I would like to see/which hospital we would like to birth at. I have my first appointment with a group of midwives at a hospital about an hour away next week. I hope I love them and won't have to figure something else out. The midwife I am scheduled to see used to work where Charlotte was born so she knows my history (read: baggage). It's so strange to be this far along without an appointment or ultrasound.
I don't feel very anxious about this pregnancy. Probably because I'm too busy crying about how awful I feel. I have never shed so many tears over morning sickness. Yay, hormones! This is the first pregnancy where the gender isn't already clear to me. I knew with Charlotte and Bennett, but this time I haven't a clue. Honestly, it feels like a boy AND girl in there, but that's just because my boy and girl symptoms are all mixed together this time. I'm leaning towards girl, but that's what my heart aches for so who really knows how much logic and truth there is to that prediction.
Belly wise, I have the infamous first trimester bloat going on. I'm showing a tiny bit, but most of it is due to food. When I feel well enough to eat I cram it in.
J has been trying really hard to alleviate my symptoms. Something is working, I think, because I don't feel as bad and the vomiting has slowed. J is really excited. I'm still in the first trimester what was I thinking my 18 month old cries when I do and slams the toilet seat on my head to make me stop vomiting whose idea was this I'm a bad mama phase.
I will be blogging a lot about this pregnancy. I hope it's not a trigger for anyone. I've come to a place where this blog is about me and my life. While that includes loss and Charlotte, of course, it also includes life in general. I hope everyone is comfortable here. I'm so excited to share our journey to rainbow #2 with you.
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14 comments:
I am so happy for you :)
Well, not the sick :/
Maybe it is a boy and girl in there!
Soooo exciting! I just hope you continue to feel better and better. I look forward to hearing how this pregnancy journey progresses!!!
I'm so thrilled to see you are pregnant again, and had a little chuckle to Merry's reply above because I was thinking the same!
I'm sorry you are so sick, morning sickness is horrible. I've had it with all of mine and each time wrse than the time before.
I found accupressure bands helped a little, as did the smell of oranges, and eating whatever I could, usually bland carbs.
Loads of love to you. x
I have been following your posts since I found you from a friend's blog, around the time you lost your baby. I am so happy for you and thank you for blogging...I look forward to your posts!!
So exciting!! Hoping your sickness eases quickly!!!
Sure hope it all works out for you, hopefully you will ease up on the nausea and get some good sleep too.
Sounds like a new adventure is ahead for all of you.
Congratulations!! I am beyond happy for you and wishing all the best. I agree with Jeanette, eating lots of carbs, especially in the morning really helped me with morning sickness. Sometimes it is super hard to do, but having something in there to soak up those pregnancy hormones helps with nausea (for me anyway). For me the one bright side about morning sickness was always that it was a sign that the pregnancy hormones are running high, which I took to mean things were ok in those early months when there is no other affirmation. Sending tons of hugs and good vibes. Hope you feel better soon.
So thrilled for you. Not for the morning sickness, but for your pregnancy.
Long time reader, first time commentor....First, a huge congrats! So ecstatic for you! And have to say, we must be close in our pregnancies. I registered a positive on February 12th and am due mid-October with my 2nd. Can't wait to read about your adventures in pregnancy this time around!
Congratulations, hope to be joining you soon! Although not looking forward to the rough first trimester. So sorry you've had such an impossibly hard time, hope you begin to feel some relief soon. Ian is also obsessed with wheels on the bus and we have to read tha book so many times every day! Hope your appointment goes well with the new providers and you find someone you not only trust be feel at peace with.
Congrats to you all. This was so exciting to read. I hope that you will start to feel better soon
Congrats!! I'm so happy for you. I immediately thought you were having twins then you said you thought there was a boy and a girl! Can't wait to hear!
Hooray, hurrah! (For the rainbow, of course, not the intense morning sickness. Hoping that mellows out soon.)
So thrilled for you - hope,the sickness gets better soon!
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